Awaken!

Today's Wishcasting asks: What do you wish to awaken?

I probably ought to ponder my responses before reading some of the others, because I am always nodding my head thinking "um, yes! That's my wish too!" And then I lumber back to my little blog, trying my best to listen to my heart and answer as authentically as possible. I fumble my way through and have often surprised myself by discovering deeper pockets of truth. But it is an effort.

I realize this challenges me because I doubt myself. So my honest wish is to awaken confidence and trust in myself and in my inner wisdom. I think it is very symbolic that even when I am driving to a new location, following the directions I've been given, I almost always come to a point where I doubt that I have understood everything and I think I may be lost. I am about to turn around when I realize I am okay, I am on course. I also realize that many of the major decisions in my life, the relationship ones (marriage, children, even my animals), there is a moment right after the commitment has been made where I panic and believe I may have made a mistake. What this really is about is a lack of confidence in myself to measure up to the responsibility.

I am done with doubt. I no longer want to be held back because I question myself or what my spirit is telling me. I want to cultivate my intuition AND I want to follow it with a light heart, an open mind and a confident attitude. No longer the Little Engine saying "I think I can, I think I can." I wish to be the engine cheerfully proclaiming "I thought I could, I thought I could!"