Showing posts with label August Break. Show all posts
Showing posts with label August Break. Show all posts

Friday, August 30, 2013

summer's last fling

The summer heat is not about to let go and I am following its cue and holding tight to these last precious days ...

























Favorite moments from the past few days ... gratitude for what is my habit: to reach for my camera, allowing the lens to pull me more deeply into the beauty of the moment as it unfolds before me ...














  




What memories will you carefully pack away?  What will sustain you on a blustery, gray, winter's day?  Mingled in my memory will be the sweetness of watermelon, the dusty scent of lavender, the song of the evening crickets and the luxuriousness of long days with my girl. 










Take time to remember ... for all too soon, we forget.

Happy holiday weekend to my American friends. xo

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Life with windows open ...

We have had an incredible run of mild weather. For weeks we have been able to turn the air conditioning off at night and sleep with the windows open, waking in the morning deliciously chilled and refreshed.  I have fallen asleep to the sound of the neighborhood owl calling late into the night and have smelled the recent arrival of a skunk.  Birdsong is my snooze alarm (I am notorious for hitting the snooze 3 or 4 or 5 times before actually waking up!) along with the distant whirl of a lawn mower tending to the golf course grass.





(Did you not know we live off of a golf course? It would be more picturesque to say a wild wood abutted our property or even a farm or fields but alas, for wide open space I had to settle for the rattle and hum of golf carts.  Cowgirl is amassing a booty of stray balls that she plans to sell for our fortune and which,perhaps, will fund our retreat to wilder spaces.)

Life with open windows - that is how I think about my world these past few months.  Three months and a handful of days since I checked out of the daily grind that was my "normal" job.  But it was not normal to work in a space where the windows did not open.  There were times when I would press my hands against the glass, recalling William Styron's memoir on his depression, where he gives the vivid description of feeling like he was trapped in a room with the windows and doors sealed shut, and it is becoming increasingly hotter and hotter, and he would do anything to escape the sensation of being smothered. 

Now that I have windows that open (and close - symbolizing healthy boundary maintenance) I understand how my previous situation slowly eroded my confidence and sense of power and self worth. Having some distance and fresh air in my life, I am able to understand I am on a journey to reclaim what had drained away from me and more importantly, to appreciate that this process will take time and effort.







These past few months have been the best of times mixed with some low moments.  Not the worst of times, but challenging times.  While I anticipated clunky moments adapting to being at home, I was blissfully unprepared for the lapses in my confidence and the assault to my sense of trust and faith in things working out as long as I do my part.  I still believe that; but part of my real work is realigning myself -  my attitude and spirits - with what I choose to belief about life and meaning and purpose.

I would say this is how I practice magick on a daily basis.  Not casting spells with dried toad tongues or uttering incantations in Latin or Celtic; but regularly sitting still, giving space and time to acknowledge the voices of fear and doubt that swirl madly in my head and then to gently send them on their way as I usher back in what I believe to be true and possible within myself and my life. The magic is me showing up, every day to face my gremlins and to manifest my justice league of inner superheroes and heroines.  

The magic is acknowledging the gifts of abundance that come my way every day: 





conversations with neighbors when deeper secrets and joys are revealed; the box of cucumbers by the mailbox with a sign "for free"; the cool morning breeze kissing my skin as I water the tomato plant, heavy with fruit; the nighttime story book adventure about a girl and her dragon; my girl and her dragon egg incubating in the fairy mail box (it is due to hatch tonight on the full moon!); and this, my wondrous drying rack that I set out every day on my patio, in defiance of neighborhood covenants outlawing laundry lines.  






My small gesture of rebellion is also my five minute warm-up as I ease my way into slowing down and showing up. As one of my teachers explains: what I put on my altar is my life - that is my practice.  Inquiring deeply into the nature of things and through practice - through showing up - testing the accuracy of that view and adjusting it as my understanding and awareness evolve.  This moment, this being me, is all I have.  It is my north star and every day I make the conscious choice to follow it.





Join with me in an inquiry into the structures, support and challenges of practice.  Enjoy the support of community to experiment and experience The Gift of Practice.  I am offering a free counsel session when you sign up by August 24 as part of an early bird registration thank-you.

Friday, August 9, 2013

✸ August Break ✸

All in a week ...

driving through Nebraska





driving in eastern Colorado






a face to face meeting with a very regal turkey vulture 






and more unexpected encounters









 

girl time







 enjoying the riches of summer 







resting and refreshing ourselves whenever we can







What does summer look like for you?

 

Friday, August 2, 2013

butterfly girl (August Break)

A summer tradition now ... The August Break ... pictures snapped amid the breezy days of August ... our last gasp of summer (school starts in two weeks - how can that be?) and there just isn't time to linger ... fun to be had ...









friends visiting and the requisite trip to the zoo 








the butterflies were rioting ... 


 



everyone of us receiving butterfly kisses and while I've never heard of this said, I'm choosing to believe that every butterfly extends to us a wish ... 



 



we were granted many, but mine will be for summer to live on in our daily pace and in attitude as we prepare to shift gears all-too-soon ...






I have something I've been incubating for some time now ... you can take a peek over here to find out more ...






yes, many butterfly wishes ... many, many, many!

Friday, August 31, 2012

spontaneous moments (poem it out)

My to-do list could plausibly read
“build backyard pyramid”

I am that out of control,
as I attempt order and control

all the while furiously declaring
“Spontaneity will be mine!”

There is what I want to do …
what I need to do …
and what you inspire in me …



 


 

Today I will toss the mail onto the towering pile,
walk over a floor more hairy than the dog,
sift through a mound of laundry to retrieve
our two swimsuits.

There is no list expansive enough to contain
the joy of watching your Kool-Aid orange crocs
dance across the pavement,
the diving board soar,
cool water splash,
and the bloom of your smile
floating in all that turquoise freedom. 













It has been an amazing month.  Thank you Liz Lamoreux for the inspiration and The August Break for the excuse to indulge myself completely.  

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

our life in motion (august break)



It has been back-to-school madness over here.  Cowgirl started second grade - what?!  




wearing her dog shark t-shirt - a girl has to make the proper first impression



 





And we grown-ups returned to work at our respective Universities which means life back on the road and stuck morning in traffic.  Little time to linger as we all hit our routines hard. And how are we holding up?

 


"I'm NOT tired!"




We did manage to pull ourselves together, mustering the energy to celebrate our six year family anniversary -










Six years into the reign of Cowgirl and we can honestly say, life with a benevolent tyrant is pretty sweet. (Note: this year I did NOT include a view of our anniversary cake which was a first attempt by myself and Cowgirl to make a sickening yummy strawberry jello cake. In attempt to cover up the ever-widening San Andreas Fault line through the middle, we spackled it with frosting and then Cowgirl tarted it up with every color of sprinkles we had on hand. I know, you really wish I had documented it.  Alas, opportunity lost ...)
















Another August has trickled through our fingers but we are hanging on to the bitter end, squeezing in as many final trips to the pool as we can possibly manage.










 


 








Meanwhile, I have been busy with much plotting, planning, tinkering and navel gazing which may or may not manifest into something visible.  Most certainly a deepening and an internal mellowing is occurring.  




 










Or perhaps I am just learning to finally relax?  Absorbing some much needed wisdom - and guidance -  from a master.   

Ah August, how we have enjoyed you! (but good things are coming, oh yes, they are coming!)


Tuesday, August 21, 2012

my great pumpkin (august break)




I want to tell you about the pumpkin plant which our neighbor bequeathed to us this past Spring … 






How we planted it in the bed by the patio where nothing seems to grow ... or rather, grows but is immediately eaten by roving bands of marauding rabbits … so we put a cage around it – the plant, not a rabbit – until it billowed out through the wire squares and then with breath held we released it to the wilds (which is to say, our backyard with ground squirrels, voles, robins, grackles, foxes, hawks and of course, those pesky but impossibly cute rabbits.)


Then we left on vacation.

Fearing to find the worst when we returned because by-the-way we are in a drought here, but of course the plant being a cheeky fellow surprised us by its vim and vigor, 

 

 




quadrupling in size and sporting a jaunty wreath of buds and one nascent pumpkin gourd.
















There are lots of things The Husband told me about male and female flowers and how one could manually pollinate them (which seems rather forward, wouldn’t you say?)  but we chose to let the plant decide how things would go. Each day (another without rain but with incredible heat) it grows ...





 





and grows ...
















and now Great Pumpkin you rest like a Great Sow with belly upon the patio for all to behold with awe and admiration.










But what I drawn to talk about is this: that when we plant seeds, the only certainty is our hope for how things might turn out. So we attend to them with a mixture of anticipation, trust (in them to grow and in our ability to care) and love.










We then marvel at the determination of Life – pumpkins, our children, ourselves -  to persist even in the harshest conditions.  Survival for a pumpkin plant and perhaps ourselves depending upon long, reaching vines, multiple buds, multiple prospects, and one faithful water bearer showing up as best he or she can. 
















And the story - which is really about audacity and growth - continue to write itself ...