Feeling a bit uninspired - it is midweek with to-do list expanding as I sit here typing. Crisis situations abound: low on coffee, low on fresh fruit; washed the dog bed only to have it disintegrate in the washer; and oh, dog is low on his food and YIKES! Almost out of his dooty bags. So an afternoon driving around town to gather all these necessities is leaving me feeling drained before I even begin. Then I remember it is Wishcasting Wednesday, so I pop over to gather some kernels of inspiration. How's this for an opening line to rally one's spirits:
You can be a maker of magic and a tender of wishes.
Er, ahem, excuse me ... that's my job? Ah, what about the fairies? Doesn't magic and wishes fall under their union contract?
It gets better: today Jamie asks: What do you wish to Experience?
Initially, I drew a blank on this. Which really really bothers me. It bothers me because I truly believe we are only limited by the scope of our dreams. (I tried googling similar phrases thinking this sage comment had to originate with someone else; it seems to be an advertising slogan, which seems oddly appropriate.) Finding my storehouse of dreams empty then is cause for alarm.
Or is it a fear of voicing those dreams because once they are expressed, then it is up to me to do something about them? To make a wish is to plant a seed and someone - me - has to water that seed and periodically move the pot into the changing sunshine spots.
If I let myself get quiet, stopping my obsessive busyness, then I do see that recently I have been planting many little seeds in my life: returning to photography; exploring different art making mediums; taking and teaching creativity workshops; writing my stories here and the stories still rooting in the greenhouse that is my laptop. It has been a rich, fruitful and exciting time in my life and yet I know I need to take another step forward, rather than the spiraling around that I've been doing lately.
So right now, in this place, in this moment in my life, what one thing do I wish to experience? (Already I can feel a list formulating for all the many things I want to experience carrying me far into the future, but such expansive dreaming can distract me from seizing this moment as I ponder: What next?)
The answer that bubbled up surprised me: I wish to experience the richness, the support, the community of a women's circle. Awhile back, a friend told me I should do this and I loved the idea but please, couldn't someone else organize this? I'm all about joining; I really don't want to lead. But this wise friend knows me well and knows I shy away from claiming and expressing my power. So here I am, wishing for a circle and knowing if I want this, then I must do it. Or at the very least, be a midwife to this concept in the hopes that others will rally around to keep it alive. I also see, I have become part of several online circles which have been my life support systems these past few months. But I crave a physical gathering of women with which to talk,share, laugh, cry and hug.
So I wish for a sacred circle to form. A side wish that is already gestating is for my flickr 365 group to gather for the retreat we've all been dreaming and talking about. That both circles may rise up, well - that would be magic indeed. Okay, I'm getting out the potting soil ...
What do you wish to experience?