The benefit of offering a course on self care is the constant awareness to practice it! I am so very grateful I've learned to trust that when an idea comes to me in a flash, I am follow it forward despite the almost immediate ruckus of doubts and obstacles tossed my way by the shadow-loving gremlins of fear and insecurity. Certainly the best course for me to lead is the one I need most in this moment.
I've been in building mode: creating the course, planning some local offerings and new adventures and projects. It has been invigorating but it also has been exhausting. The shorter days have also taken their toll and in the interest of modeling exquisite self care, I have found myself scaling back, doing less, resting more. The unexpected core of my self care practice has been slowing down, doing one thing at a time and being mindful as to who, where, or what I am directing my attention towards. So far, the result has been I am feeling less scattered, more focused and energized. I am finding a reserve of patience, kindness and loving care that sometimes falls by the wayside when I am frazzled or stressed. I am seeing relationships reinvigorated. Time with my girl has become more creative and playful despite the fullness of our day and schedules. And - knock on wood - so far our entire family is staying healthy while colds and viruses run through our respective schools/workplaces.
The joy of slowing down is choosing carefully what best nourishes me in any given moment. And as this building phase winds down, (well, maybe ... I have since been invited to contribute to two other projects!) I find myself returning to the practices I had to let rest while I worked elsewhere. My life feels like an English cottage garden: from a distance a bit random and haphazard, but upon closer inspection there is an order and logic present to its layout. While one bed rests fallow, a bit of manure heaped upon it for nourishment, another requires weeding while a third may be in full bloom and a fourth, ready to seed.
So this past week I tended to some favorite beds, turning up the soil, getting my hands messy, creating, destroying, preparing. This is how self care appears in my life.
I bow my head in gratitude for this jumbled, sometimes frustrating, always in process and always vibrant existence.
I guess I am more like a whirling dervish or a plate-spinner than I care to admit. But I'm in good company. ♥
The drawings are part of a go-at-your-own-pace course called Capturing the Essence by Katherine Dunn of Apifera Farm. The course is still open and there is plenty of time to enjoy the beautiful lessons which center upon the colorful hooved, webbed and paw-footed residents of the farm. It has been my sanctuary to visit there, albeit virtually through my laptop screen.