Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Weekly Reflection (week 21): The great pretender
Two days into Kelly Rae Roberts amazing e-course Flying Lessons and I am already needing a new journal to keep up with all the ideas, prompts, questions and suggestions heaping up in my brain. Yesterday she raised a question which resonated with me:
What would I like to pretend to be?
And then she suggests a great strategy which is basically a spin on "Fake it until you make it" or to rephrase her idea, fake it until I am no longer faking. This is where I've been headed these past weeks and I am feeling ripe and ready to embrace this central fact:
Now, I've been walking around, trying on for size the mantle of "Artist" and "Creative Being" not quite ready to voice it, but certainly feeling it in my bones and in my sap and spirit. And it feels pretty darned good. Like prancing around in the fitting room in expensive but beautifully made outfit and realizing "hey, I deserve this! And I can afford it!"
Oh yeah, I've got my list of fears and obstacles to work through. My fears revolve around lack: talent, skill, ideas, time, and resources. But I know from experience each time I push myself out there, what I need always rushes up to meet me where I am standing. Abundance and creativity are the lifeblood of the Universe, so why would I persist in believing I am exempt from receiving any?
Ultimately, I do trust, I do believe in the cycle of giving and receiving, flow moving out and coming back in. Creativity is an energy that defines life/living and we all have access to it, we all are part of it. The trick is to strengthen my creative muscles with daily practice; keep the lines of communication flowing and know it is all about process and flow. I am a work in progress; my life is a creative act and each day I am choosing to celebrate that fact. As Twyla Tharp counsels in her wonderful book The Creative Habit "[T]ake a deep breath, stamp your foot, and shout 'Begin!' You never know where it will take you."
Starting where I am ... believing, trusting, being fearless (my word for the year!) and most of all, loving. Loving myself, loving my life, and loving through creating and sharing. A pretty good place to begin I would say.