Holding onto the Details

What do I wish to pay attention to? The details, all of the details. Every juicy, sticky, overwhelming, boring, awe inspiring, stomach clenching, heart racing, mind numbing, thrilling and mundane moment that constitutes my life. Love is in the details. Love is paying attention and honoring each moment as part of the larger whole. A few details that make up my love mosaic are:

Peanut butter on the corners of your mouth

Salty tears anointing my lips

Insistent pats waking me from the fog of sleep

Sweat fevered forehead steaming under my cool palm

Warm solid mass of you curled up against my side

Giggles shared under cupped hands

Noisy tippy toes sneaking up to startle me

Paint stained hands offering me a masterpiece

Laughing ghost hiding behind closet doors

Girl-pup scampering around my knees while I cook

Turning kola bear and hanging on, refusing to say goodbye

And then, a solid kiss on the lips before I depart

The heft of you upon my hip

Troll child snarling at my feeble attempts to jolly

Proclaiming me “Sweet Angel”

And you, a chick, I am to hatch

Warm whispered secrets in my ear

Small hands stroking my cheek with praise - “good mommy”

Our names, together, on school artwork,

Beneath two misshaped happy faces holding hands

Bathtub mermaid calling me into the water

Nonsensical knock-knock jokes

Infectious exuberance of accomplishment

Cries I pray I will always be able to soothe

Showing up every day even when I am worn out, despondent, afraid, uncertain, doubtful, empty, overwhelmed …

And loving me, because that’s you

I wish to remember all these moment and to pay attention to the ones about to happen.

Happy Wishcasting Wednesday!