Showing posts with label Bloom True. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Bloom True. Show all posts

Sunday, July 29, 2012

sprouting dreams








 Every once in awhile, I am surprised to realize that dreams do come true.

It's not that I don't hold out hope for the best - planting ideas like seeds into hope-filled and fertile ground -  but I have come to expect the unexpected which life tends to deliver. Like the pumpkin plant we had one year.  I tended to that plant like a new mother only to come out one morning and find it stricken by some fungus that shriveled it up it like the wicked witch under Dorothy's house. Cowgirl was heart broken.  

And then a few weeks later, I discovered a thriving pumpkin plant by our front porch.  Reminder that what we may toss aside as spent - in this case last year's pumpkin that I casually nudged into behind the bushes after I discovered it had rotted on the front stoop. (A lesson for the Husband that my seemingly slothful ways may hold some value.)  

I was reminded of this pumpkin (and similar gardening adventures - like the time our previous dog would steal tomatoes, carrying them around in his mouth and then drop them in odd pockets of the yard where hardy plants later sprouted up - which makes me question my gardening techniques) as I stood before 3 of my paintings hanging in a group show this past weekend.










Only instead of pumpkins, paintings of Ganesha - five in all - had manifested in less than three months time.  My first public showing of my artwork since I was a college student and I'm not sure even an elephant could remember that far back. 










It was a beautiful show mounted by the yoga center where I teach.  A number of artists were invited to contribute work on the theme of Ganesha, the elephant-headed Hindu deity of Success and destroyer of obstacles.  A good subject for someone stepping out of her comfort zone.  A good ally as I consciously embrace my identity as a creative being and become comfortable with calling myself an artist.  





Sweet treats for Ganesha (photo from Omaha Yoga & Bodywork Center)











It was a love-filled evening with many dear friends coming out to show their support.  My little herd of Ganeshas looked happy on the colorful walls of the yoga center and I was quite proud of them ... and of me.  Within the first hour of the opening one painting sold, and by the end of the evening 4 out of the five were purchased.  But more rewarding for me was to see people choosing to pose in front of my paintings for photographs.  









Cowgirl enjoyed the opening by cartwheeling across the space and contributing to the mythology of the paintings creation.  Apparently she painted in some key features - a point I don't recall, but certainly will not doubt. (Which means I owe her a portion of any monies generated by sales - a point she was quick to bring up.) 




my baby Ganeshas are on the left




And here's the bit about dreams:  two years ago I was in one of those "manifest your dream" ecourses and the dream I envisioned at that time was a gallery show.  I went so far as to inquire at a nearby coffee shop about their schedule of shows and submission requirements.  I even wrote out a list of ideas for a themed show and the work I wanted to create.  Then my interest waned and like that rotted pumpkin, the idea was relegated to a dark corner of my mind.  









Magically, it took root and without much interference from the gremlins that busy themselves with my conscious mind.  A lesson for me in patience, perseverance, and trust. I painted, I practiced and I stayed open possibilities and when all the forces were in place, Ganesha stepped in and cleared a path to an auspicious beginning. 




 

 
Of course, when I am paying attention and looking with my heart not my mind, I see how the Universe is always tending to the seeds I scatter rather haphazardly, bringing love into full and magnificent bloom.  Her given name does mean "excellent seedling" - a little reminder for those times I am forgetful. 



Tuesday, July 10, 2012

excuse me, i've got painting fever ...


... and I am a little obsessed by Ganesha right now.  Actually, on the basis of this one little guy (from my 49 by 49 series)







I've been invited to contribute artwork to a show at the yoga center where I teachI'm not sure they were expecting this herd of elephant-headed gods to show up but, well, I just can't seem to stop myself.  













This guy just can't make up his mind on what he wants to wear for the event: purple? green? blue?
















Fortunately for Ganesha I've been immersed in Flora Bowley's incredible online course Bloom True.  Even though I took a two day workshop with Flora in April, the 5-week course has given me a chance to dive into the practices, allowing time to let things sink in.  It is so much more than mere pigment on canvas: it is about uncovering your inspiring life, being bold and brave, playful and trusting in yourself and in the notion of discovery and process. 














As you can see, I'm rolling in paint and canvas and elephants.  I just can't stop myself!









 





So excuse me if I am quiet for a bit ... I have a little over a week left to figure out who these paintings want to be.  As if this moment, I consider them still in-progress.  We have a lot more to discover about each other.





 






 I mean, I can't leave anyone behind?!  Ganesha just keeps on manifesting ...




these Ganesha babies are 6 by 6 inch gesso board pieces and will be mounted on larger panels separately.  maybe ...



... he is the god of new beginnings and he keeps asking for another close-up moment.  I must oblige.


Om Ganapataye Namo Namah Om Ganapataye Namo Namah Om Ganapataye Namo Namah Om Ganapataye Namo Namah Om Ganapataye Namo Namah Om Ganapataye Namo Namah

(I love this explanation of the Ganesha mantra: This mantra removes all evil and obstacles that prevent you from reaching your goals.  Chanting the mantra just after bath is very good or very early morning isextremely beneficial. My favorite chant to Ganesha is by Bhagavan Das which has the great line "you have a big fat red belly ..."  I hear this song and that belly keeps me painting on and on and on ...)

Saturday, May 5, 2012

playtime ✻


 




On the last day of Flora Bowley's Bloom True workshop, she asked us to re-word a thought loop or critical chatter that may have been plaguing us during our painting process.  She suggests a similar practice in her new book Brave Intuitive Painting in the section titled Recreating Your Story. If every action has its ancestor in a thought, then I've been recreating a whole family of new thoughts -  new realities -  for myself.    Here is the freshened up speech I wrote while sitting on the lawn at the Chautauqua Institute and I've playing in my head every since: 

I joyfully and playfully embrace the unknown as an exciting adventure ...

filled with endless possibilities ...





 




 Today I pulled out all of my favorite art toys and played.  I made some lovely messes and met some new friends who have been patiently awaiting their time to shine on the page.




having The Best time in Mindy Lacefield's Paint Your Story ecourse





  I got paint up my arms, in my hair, and I even got paint on my toes ...








two layers of paint a la Flora-style ... more layers to come



After such undiluted fun, the only way to conclude this day was to honor the spirit of a   true Joy Warrior ...








 and enjoy a sonic fruit slushy with my favorite girl. 








 It was a very good day. 


After many years of following my heart, I now understand that the very act of pure expression does change the world.


It changes the world by changing each and every person who is brave enough to pick up a paintbrush, open themselves up to the unknown, and express themselves honestly and intuitively. It is through this kind of heartfelt expression that truths are revealed, lives transform, and new worlds are born. - Flora Bowley, Introduction, Brave Intuitive Painting

What new worlds lie waiting within your thoughts?  Do we dare to see what lies behind those doors?  Why would we ever say no? 

Monday, April 23, 2012

journeying & arriving

I've been on a new adventure which is why I've been quiet lately.

It started in the usual way ... 






With lots of road to cover ...







 The usual amount of detours, road construction and rain ...

















 I arrived at the Makerie Retreat in Boulder, Colorado ready to let go and let the paint flow in Flora Bowley's Bloom True 2-day painting workshop.  














Over the course of those two days I tumbled, tussled, tangoed and finally submitted to the whispers of forms awaiting arrival, feelings and expression demanding colorful presence upon my canvas's stage.








We moved between two paintings the entire weekend and it was exhilarating and exhausting to be so attentive to both painting's demands.  We painted layer upon layer upon layer and I felt myself pushed to delve deeper and deeper within myself and within the paintings.







 I was grateful for my yoga training which has mentored me in the practice  of riding a wave of experience and watching for that moment when I tend to want to jump off and out of the process.  What I discovered this weekend was my habit of settling; that I have often times believed myself to be content with riding the smaller waves, maintaining that those little ripples are satisfying and more than enough for me and my life.

I am now entertaining more dangerous thoughts, one of which being I am content no more to play it so safe, to stay on the inside edge of the forest in sunlight, comfort, gentle breezes and birdsong.  I stepped into the wild, the dark, the unknown this past weekend and while I was often frustrated and more often perplexed and confused as to where to go next, I do know I no longer want to settle for the easy and the known.  

More is brewing within me ... fox traveled with me these many miles and I am anxious to follow her back into the brush, my whiskers twitching, tail swishing, eager for more. And more. And more.   







The 8+ hour drive home was not enough time for me to even begin to resolve what is shifting within my thoughts, nor can I begin to bring into focus this expanded sense myself and who I am and how it is I want to grow. 








 I just know I am grateful to Flora for the windows she has opened within me.  







Her work, her teaching, her voice are sunlight and Spring rain and fresh breezes inspiring within me a confidence that change is possible, thriving likely and blooming a surprising and unexpected reward for hanging in when the ride gets wild.  And the process is chaotic, the outcome uncertain but the possibilities beyond my imagining.













I believe things are about to become very interesting now that I've returned ...